Fear and degradation
A life of painful scintillation
Quandaries running through my precognitive mind
Am I alive only to suffer
Or is it to show another
That I might rise
Despite all the preordained misgivings
Of my shattered youth
My path yet unspoken
My spirit nearly broken
I travel quite heavy
Holding a world quite unsteady
Wrapped caringly in my mind’s eye
A faint glimmer of my destination
I push forward toward spiritual emancipation
As shadows of former selves rush by
A message I’ve been given
To share among only the living
Burdened with full knowledge of all the lies
Desperate measures taken
For my lover must awaken
I fear if not now
Then never will he find the man I see inside
Through the shrouded looking-glass
We walk over slivers of his past
The terror growing steadily
Though I know he is ready
To break the chains
That have bound him to this time
My courage is a token
Of my vows to him unbroken
A reminder of all I have overcome
My love, never shaken
My bond to him only strengthens
As I sit to watch
Another miracle in creation
He is about to walk through life
Eyes opened wide
If all my suffering is meant for this
The first moment he becomes aware
I would trudge through it all again
Just to see his soul free and bare
No longer tethered to the past
I regret not a single moment
My heart has not been broken
Patience is earned, never given
I will always be right here
Waiting for you
My dearest waking dream
embrionik 
Thanks, this is beautiful. I like being challenged to look at a situation in a completely different perspective.
Always miss Amanda. Remember there is no bullshit about me. I don’t judge, condemn, ingratiate, manipulate, withhold or lie… I will always love unconditionally, speak my truth, and share my soul
You my dear, are an amazing beautiful soul. And you will never be alone in your journey.